I’m so tired of all my “I want a boyfriend/I want a hand to hold/I want somebody to love/I want a guy to talk with at the end of the day” blah blah blah crap! Life is so short to be worrying about this, especially being young! Why do we always feel the need to have a companion at the end of the day? Sure, it would be extremely nice at the end of the day to have a significant other there for you no matter what, but if you don’t have one right now maybe it’s just not the right time and your time will come soon. This realization hit me today, as I was sitting in the back of a car with the windows down, the music blasting, my hair blowing around me and the cold, chilly air hitting my cheeks on a beautiful night. It’s moments like these I live for, the simplicity of it but the impact it has. Life is so beautiful while we’re here, so why do we always groan and complain about it? Can’t we just enjoy what we have while we have it? One door closes for the next to open, and these doors are always opening and closing. I think we, including myself, need to just enjoy the waves as they come. Sometimes it’s good to be lost, because that can happen to be the place where we find ourselves. Sometimes we just need to close our eyes, listen to the music, really listen to the music. Not just hear it, but take it in. Take in the lyrics, the beat and the message behind it. I find myself getting lost in it sometimes. We just need to close our eyes and feel the fresh wind stinging our cheeks, reminding us that even though there are bad days there will be good days to blow those away. We need to experience these beautiful things in life.
I feel that most of us, again myself included, don’t get to know being by themselves well enough. We can survive on our own, and we need to realize that. You will never get this exact day again, sure there will be plenty of Tuesdays in our lives, but this exact day will NEVER be again. This is a gift to us, I think. We have to make the most of what we have. So please, stop fretting about what is out of your hands and up to some power like fate. Whatever happens happens, right? Yes. Bad things happen in life, and it’s okay to be upset about them, I’m not saying it isn’t. What I’m saying is, give enough grieving time and then get back to this beautiful place to experience the most of it. This world, this earth, this place, is an extremely beautiful thing and you can’t see everything from inside of a room. Not everything beautiful is material. Nature is beautiful as well, and if you have somebody to experience this with then I am truly happy for you and honestly, somewhat jealous, but good things come to those who wait, yes?
With all the love in my body,