I’ve decided to give my Mr. Nice Guy a chance.
What have I got to lose? He’s an amazing guy, who honestly takes as much care of me as one can from a different state. He’s the sweetest, most caring, amazing guy I’ve ever met.
There are a few… new to me, things about him that are kind of take me back a little bit by him. First off though, I’ll introduce you to him and give you a little background check, just for your pleasure!
He’ll be turning 21 in June, so not too much older than I am.
He is currently in the Air Force, at base in Texas. In the next couple of weeks though he’ll be moving to San Francisco so he’ll only be five to seven hours north of me.
He is an amazing guy with a great heart. I could not say enough good things about him, he’s seriously one of the best people in this world that I’ve met. I get the feeling he would be an amazing lover, just perfect and exactly that type of love a woman wants, ya know? The romantic, gentle, thrilling kind that every girl craves.
However… he has never been in a relationship, never even been kissed. I don’t want to be the one that corrupts him. I mean, that doesn’t really scare me off but I’m kind of nervous if we do work out, to be in a relationship with him as his first. I don’t want want him to latch on too much.
Let’s be honest here, I’m not a girl for beginners. I am not innocent. I am kind of wild. I will never be tamed. I like to do my own thing and if you give me space I will love you and always come back, sometimes I just need to do things on my own because I’m stubborn. I’m scared of hurting him or breaking him if things weren’t to work out. I’m scared of being too much for him, but he does know a bit about what he’s getting himself into because I was very honest with him about how I am. So I guess we’ll just see where that leads. I’ll take it slow for him. The thing is though, he might be good for me. But I don’t want to change who I am at all. I’m kinda conflicted on this.
Secondly, and I just found this out the other day. Maybe it’s that he hasn’t had any experience or what, but… he says he doesn’t want a girl to give him a blow job because he feels it degrades a girl.
I’m kind of hoping that once he gets experience he’ll change his mind. He doesn’t seem as freaky as I am in bed, it probably is because he hasn’t had experience and I’m hoping that once he does get some he’ll change his mind. He would just be missing out on a whole world of pleasure for a guy. Sex is pretty much an animal showing of love, in my personal opinion. Sex is where you lose your inhibitions and just do whatever feels right and… well, you do ya thang. But that’s a whole other topic.
I’m just going to feel this situation out and see what happens and all that, being very careful with him. I know he likes me A LOT, and I like him… I’m just nervous.
I’m not a beginner’s type of girl.
With all the love in my body,