Somewhere in me, will always be a soft spot for my ex no matter what.
We will always have this burning love/passionate hate for each other I believe. We just have that type of relationship. And as of lately on his end, it’s been hate.
I was having a weak time thinking about him. I had just missed talking to him, seeing as how he was my best friend for almost five years. I wanted to know what was up with him and how things were going. However, he responded with “Please don’t contact me ever again. I don’t want you in my life.” That kind of hurt, but I wasn’t really surprised so I didn’t bother responding. Maybe I deserved that for breaking up with him and how it all happened.
I still had been having a weak time thinking about him… until yesterday.
I went to Starbucks with my best friend and as we were walking to go order our drinks I do a double take on a guy sitting at a table with his college books, backpack and school supplies.
It turned out to be one of my ex’s old best friends. I hadn’t seen, talked to or hung out with him in probably two or three years. It was definitely kind of awkward at first, especially knowing my ex and him had a big falling out. Though, as my best friend and I sat down I talked to him to ease the awkwardness that was obvious in the air.
The topic of my ex came up. I told him that I broke up with D back in July. I asked if he had heard from D lately or when the last time they talked was.
One of their last fights was about a girl, apparently. A mutual friend, actually. A girl that at one point, I was pretty close with. A girl that told me she didn’t really like D. A girl that my ex’s friend tried to go after.
Well, well, well. My ex got caught red handed because his friend spilled some new information to me.
That girl had given D a blow job, and god knows what else during one of our break ups. I’ve got a bunch of mixed feelings about this.
Normally, I would be extremely pissed and ready to blow except for the fact that this happened years ago. I knew they kissed, but that was all. The more I thought about it though, the more it bugged me.
Does this girl know about girl code? I mean… come on. For one, she said she didn’t like him and would never go after him, for two her and I were really close. That’s just not right.
So I texted her immediately because it needed to be cleared up once I found out this piece of information. She admitted to it, and then told me she thought for a little bit that she liked him. If my ex and I were together, shit would have hit the fan let me tell you.
Speaking of my ex… let’s talk about him. Let’s talk about how he called me “dirty” and would never view me the same way after kissing a guy after I broke up with him. Can we just back up a second here?
He has done shit with girls, how far he’s gone is obviously not known to me. But for him to call me dirty when he’s being free for all with girls while we were broken up? I don’t think so. Especially since this is not the first friend of mine he’s gone after. He’s messed up big time plenty of times, but I always forgave him just as I’m hoping he’ll forgive me.
He even said so many times he hated her. He said she bugged the crap out of him, before they did their thing. There were a few times when he didn’t want me hanging out with her because he thought she was a “bad influence”. That’s after what they did. Thinking about it today, it made sense.
He didn’t want me hanging out with her because he was afraid that she would spill the beans.
Even though it all happened with her, I was never insecure about it. She is not cute AT ALL, she is a slut, she’ll pretty much have sex and blow any guy and is not somebody who you want to be in a relationship with her. If anything happened between them, not to toot my own horn, but she is definitely a down grade hands down and there’s no denying that. That’s why I never got mad at my ex for kissing her because quite frankly, I could care less.
Wasn’t even mad, bro.
I actually laughed when I first heard that news two or three years ago.
I don’t want to bring it up with my ex because it’s not worth it to bring it up to him now, but I do hope somehow somebody tells him I know. He’s either going to feel like shit or not care because he hates me.
I hope he realizes how much of a douche he can be. I really hope somebody tells him I know now.
So much for me being the dirty one.
With all the love in my body,